Ortholongla saya

Assalamualaikum & hello,

Day by day, posts written here will be more depressing and depressing. Currently, I am in ortho posting, just finished multiple one after another short postings. And just about things getting heat up, yesterday came out news that young doctors won't be getting extra allowance anymore. What did the gov think, really?

Sometimes, you just wonder what am I doing right now? Am I losing my passion? I can't get myself to study and I had to force myself to go to the wards because I had to bcs it was made compulsory. 

But, ortho is one of posting that I shouldnt be kidding with. It is not something that I could play around and put it into last minute studying the whole thing. Worst come to worse, I have to push myself to study regardless how lazy, no mood to study at all. 

Maybe this is what we call jihad, isnt it?

Hopefully, our days and future become better

Motivation quote

Assalamualaikum & hello,

So.. amidst the doctor situation right now, that doctors are facing difficulty in secuing job in future, I would like to share the quotes to motivate myself more in studying medicine:

Medicine is a science of uncertainty and art of probability.

Every patient you see is a lesson much more than the malady from which he suffers.

The best preparation for tomorrow is to do today's work superbly well.

Listen to your patient, he is telling you the diagnosis.

The good physician treats the disease; The great physician treats the patient who has the disease.

We are here to add what we can to life, not to get what we can from life.

Too many men slip early out of the habit of studious reading, and yet that is essential.

One of the first duties of the physician is to educate masses not to take medicine.

The practice of medicine is ant art. Not a trade; A calling, Not a business: 

A calling in which your heart will be exercised equally with your head.

Happiness lies in the absorption is some vocation which satisfies the soul.

To have striven, to have made effort. To have been true to certain ideals - this alone is worth the struggle.

Acquire the art of detachment, the virtue method and the quality of thoroughness but above all the grace of humanity. 

- WILLIAM OSLER -

Losing sight

Assalamualaikum

Yesterday was our Independence day, the day where my seniors truly enjoy independence from medical school. My 2 closest seniors will embark days waiting for HO and going through HO itself. 

These days, I question do I really wanted to do medicine? As if I knew what do other than medicine. There's no doubt that I am the one who choose this journey and even fight for it towards my end of asasi, but now, I really really feel lost. Not even the word 'lost' can describe. It's like, I'm out of love towards my crush who never really notices me. But then again, not like I work hard for it.

Probably the reason why I am out of love because I don't work for it that hard? I dont know, it is very blurry. Probably these feelings will help me figure out if someone decided to quit medical school. Even if it is my long wanted dream who would have ever thought I become this lost?

So, today, I think, I still have a lot of abilities, but most of the time, I let my abilities hid away. In any way, it doesn't in slightest bit help me for my own growth and development. I shouldve been more braver and putting myself out for a mistake that can actually help me grow and become better. 

No more chicken out, and I will continue this journey passionately 

And as for the intro saying 2 of my seniors will be graduating, that itself means, I am slowly losing my support system and I have to function on my own next time. I am sure Allah knows that I am ready for this... And with that, I should be brave right?

Rock bottom will teach you lessons that mountain tops never will

The title tell it all
Keep working hard to become a good doctor